My Experience of the Experiencers Speak 3 Conference

Two weeks ago, Kay and I went to the Experiencers Speak 3 Conference, a UFO conference in Portland Me, that is focused on those who have had direct contact with extra terrestrials. It was a good, but exhausting time. I didn’t leave with what I originally hoped to gain, but I did get a new perspective on my own abduction experiences.

When I first heard of this conference I was determined to go. I was hoping to connect with others like me and Kay, who have had these experiences, can sift through the enormous amounts of misinformation that surround them, and were genuinely seeking to make some kind of sense out of a subject that often appears to make no sense at all.

The structure of the conference was not really suited for connecting with our fellow attendees though. There was usually only a ten minute gap between speakers, and the schedule ran from 9am to at least 9pm on paper. In reality it ran much later and neither Kay or I had the stamina to stay there past 10pm. Unfortunately, this meant missing the Q&A portions of the conference which I would have found very interesting, but the only way I could have participated at that point would have been in an out of body state.

The majority of speakers were excellent though, and I give kudos to the staff of Starborn Support for putting together a conference of quality presenters. Peter Robbins was an excellent host,  his knowledge of the field and his passion for the work really showed as he was speaking.

One of the highlights for me was the talk given by Mike Clelland. Mike has been focused mainly on the connections between owls and ufos, and the increase of synchronicities by experiencers. At one point in his talk Mike said that his friend had commented “But Mike, you’re not using the scientific method.” To which Mike answered “That’s okay, I’m not a scientist.” I’ve felt for a long time that the struggle to make these experiences fit into the classic scientific framework is holding us back from understanding them in a more holistic manner.

I was also very pleased to meet William (Bill) Konkolesky, who Kay and I spoke briefly with during the conference. Bill is a writer who has chronicled his expeeriences, without layering on some sort of mission or cosmic plan that many experiencers have to try and make some sense of it all. He is also a frequent lucid dreamer, and he and Kay spoke about having experiences of the aliens intruding on dreams. I highly recommend his book “Experiencer: Raised In Two Worlds” which chronicles his early abduction experiences.

During one presentation, I had a rather uncomfortable shock when David Chace was showing a slideshow of his artwork of different kinds of beings. I recognized one of the aliens he described as “football headed” from one of my own experiences. Somehow, this drove the reality of this home to me. The “football headed” alien is not one who has appeared anywhere in pop culture, like the grays, or even  in UFO literature like the Preying Mantis. This being was about 4-5 feet high, with rough, saggy, brown skin, a wide mouth and dark eyes. It was one of a jumble of creatures I saw on the day I closed the vortex and ended my experiences.

Accepting the reality of these creatures on a more profound level was like swallowing a pill without water. You feel it slowly move down your throat towards your gut in a quietly uncomfortable torture. I guess just being at the conference itself was a way of me stepping out and acknowledging that these experiences were more that just my own personal sort of nightmares. Even though I had accepted that intellectually, I was now feeling it more emotionally.

Fortunately, some respite came later on when Linda Cortille was speaking. Linda was the focus of the book “Witnessed: The True Story of the Brooklyn Bridge UFO Abductions” by Budd Hopkins. Linda was a true New Yorker, and clearly uncomfortable speaking in public, even to a group as supportive as this one. She related to us an odd part of her life during the time that her and Budd Hopkins were investigating her experience, which involved Cardinal O’Conner. She provided some much needed laughter and relief during what was mostly heavy subject matter. There was one thing she said that stuck with me though, at the end of her talk.  (I’m paraphrasing, of course.) “At the end of the day, there’s still food in the cupboards, you’re still here and you’re still whole.” For the majority of us, this is true. Even if we’re going through PTSD from our experiences, the normal, waking part of our lives is still the same, and we can take some comfort in that.

As I mulled Linda’s words, I realized that I no longer cared exactly what happened during those abduction years, I can deal with those memories as they surface. In the here and now, I’m more interested in understanding what the reality of these beings really means in my life. I don’t really care much about their politics, their breeding programs, their connections to the government, etc. These all feel like distractions to me and we’ll never sort out the truth from the misinformation anyway. But in the life I am creating, I’ve chosen these beings to play some kind of role. I still have some strong feelings which would tempt me to put that role in a negative light, but for now I am trying to suspend judgement and see if I can gain a new perspective on my experiences.

What I Know And What I Think I Know About Alien Abductions

What do I know about the Alien Abduction phenomenon? What do any of us really know? This is an area where facts are few and far between, and the gaps are often filled in either by our own imaginations or some form of suggestion.

It’s a fact that people are having abduction experiences. These are happening worldwide, and it strikes me as absurd to dismiss all these reports as some sort of media induced mass hallucination.  Hallucinations do not leave physical scars or implants behind in a body. Dismissing such evidence out of hand, when there is such an abundance of it from researchers like Budd Hopkins or Roger Leir, is unscientific to say the least.

And that is where the facts end for the most part. Granted, if I believe people are being abducted, then I also believe that someone/something is causing those abductions, but who or what are these beings really? Are they aliens from another planet as they often tell us or is that just an illusion they pick because our minds are willing to accept it as truth.

Whatever these beings are, it’s a fact that they are illusionists. They often show experiencers various scenarios of the world ending. Some of them were even foolish enough to put dates on them. If you do some research on alien predictions or channeled alien predictions you can find many stories of cataclysms that should have happened in the 90’s or 2000 or more recently 2012. At one time I tried to keep track of them, but it quickly became an exercise in futility.

Since they are illusionists and elaborate ones at that. It makes the entire memory of the experience suspect. How do I know what I’m remembering is what really happened or just some kind of post hypnotic suggestion they left behind?

Another fact is that they do use some form of hypnosis or suggestion to repress memories of abductions. It could be argued that the human brain might be creating this repression itself because it can’t deal with the trauma of being abducted, and I won’t dispute that. However, in my own experiences I have had the beings use some form of hypnotic suggestion to get me to comply with their wishes.

The combination of these facts leads me to the obvious conclusion that I cannot trust anything these entities show or tell me. Nor can I trust any information given to any other researcher, because none of us have a means to filter out the truth from illusions.

I did not mention the breeding program in my facts listed above, because I still have my doubts about it. I don’t doubt that they are harvesting genetic material from us, but whether or not they’re making hybrids? Given the likelihood that these beings have been doing this for centuries, and the sheer size of the phenomenon, they should have been able to replace the entire human race with hybrids by now.

If they’re trying to save their own race by some sort of gene splicing or genetic manipulation, then they’re really, really incompetent, as once again they should have been able to accomplish this years ago. They’re supposed to be so far ahead of us technologically, yet we’ve accomplished a great deal (for better or worse) with our genetic manipulations.

Or is it that they are our creators, having genetically uplifted us from apes many millennia ago and they’re tweaking us now to keep us going. Since there are seven billion of us on the planet, we’re certainly not dying out. Perhaps they are trying to increase our brain power or our lifespans or even eliminate male pattern baldness? Since there has been such a mish mash of stories from these beings, I would be hard pressed to believe anything beneficial from them.

So that’s what I know about the alien abduction phenomenon, now here’s what I believe about it. I’m gladly submit that everything I say her may be wrong and my opinions are subject to change without notice.

I believe that these beings are fascinated by human emotions and that many of these abductions, including the medical ones, are actually just a means to draw some type of reaction from us. The abductions generate fear and horror, as does the medical procedures. Some of the sexual practices draw up feelings of humiliation and shame. Some of the aliens showing people babies draws up strong maternal/paternal feelings. I almost never hear of a boring alien encounter, there are always some powerful emotions involved, and that strikes me as being very important.

I believe these beings are not from outer space or any particular planetary system, but actually inhabit the same space as us, but on a different vibrational plane. Don Juan, in the Carlos Casteneda books described the Earth as being layered like an onion. I imagine these beings coming through from one of the nearby onion layers.

I believe their agenda is entirely selfish. I don’t believe they have any sort of benevolent intentions towards us, nor do I think it’s deliberately malicious. A cat is not evil when it toys with a mouse before killing it, although the mouse would probably disagree. The cat is simply being a cat and doing what it has always done. I believe these beings are the same way, they do what they do for reasons we can’t fathom, but ultimately, it’s because they are what they are.

What would our interactions be like if we were meeting them on a level playing field? I suspect that they’re not interested in such things, at least not the one’s who are abducting people while they sleep. To the greater multiverse, these creatures may only be cosmic mosquitoes, looking for easy victims to feed on. Empowering ourselves sours the milk, we are no longer going to react with extreme levels of emotion, but will act firmly and decisively instead.

Finally, I believe that we have the power to stop them. I suspect the only reason that they can do what they do here, is because so many of us have lost touch with our own inherent psychic power. K and I drove them from our lives by firmly refusing to be taken. Other people have done this as well, Ann Druffel has written a book called How To Defend Yourself Against Alien Abductions which is a must read for anyone who wants to stop these experiences.

I will never claim to have all the answers when it comes to these events. However, I have great faith in the human spirit, in our capacity to grow and learn. This area of the paraphysical is the next great frontier, although it’s been explored by Shamans for centuries, so it’s not completely uncharted.  I am fortunate in that I have had many positive paraphysical experiences before the abduction phenomenon entered my life. I firmly believe though, that I will rise above the trauma of my abductions and find some of the greater treasures that are still waiting to be discovered.